Where do you go when its all said and done
When everyone's left; you're the only one
When there's no one to wipe away your tears
No one to hold your hand; to help you conquer your fears
You're left alone to fix the pieces of your shattered heart
So many pieces you don't even know where to start
Where do you go when everyone's walked out
When they've left you with only yourself to doubt
You hate yourself for it and hope it wont last long
Your time on this lonely earth where you don't belong
Everyday you wish you could die
You think that no one would even cry
You're in so much pain you cut yourself with a knife
Hoping one time it will end your miserable life
Don't give up; don't give in
You have strength burried within
I'll be there to help clear the debris
You can always count one me
When everyones gone i'll still be there
Waiting to hug you and wipe away every tear
I'll build you up, protect and encourage you
Ill make your heart just like brand new
When you feel like theres no hope, thats when you'll find me
I'll be waiting to be whatever you need me to be
I'll be the strength that gets you through
I'll support you in all that you do
I'll guide you through your darkest night
To be by your side always is my plight
i'll be there for you always and forever
through every trial and every endeavor
♫ Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay,
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray ♫
♫ Your Guardian Angel ♫
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
A Stepping Stone
i thought of a song and it reminded me of you
reminded me of all that I've been through
it reminded me of your smile and your laugh
of how you were my twin, my other half
i hear the birds and reminisce about how you'd sing
and how you were my stronghold, my everything
i reminisce about your voice and the things you've said
every single word plays out in the back of my head
i look at the sky and i miss your face
i miss your love and your warm embrace
i miss knowing that you cared
when i could come to you and not be scared
i feel the grass and i miss your smell
i miss the times you'd say 'all is well'
i miss the way you'd make me smile
the way you made life somehow seem worthwhile
i miss your presence as i feel the air
i miss the times you said you'd always be there
you made me believe in humanity and believe in love
i felt like you were my guardian angel sent from above
i remember everything until i cry
and all i ever think about is why
what bad things have i done
to deserve the taking away of my sun
i suppose things will never be the same
and i don't know the reasons that are to blame
my heart has been shattered, I'm devastated at best
i cant get you out of my mind and it makes me depressed
i guess i have no other choice so this is goodbye
with no earthly clue of the reasons why
why you have left me broken hearted and all alone
i guess this will be merely a stepping stone
reminded me of all that I've been through
it reminded me of your smile and your laugh
of how you were my twin, my other half
i hear the birds and reminisce about how you'd sing
and how you were my stronghold, my everything
i reminisce about your voice and the things you've said
every single word plays out in the back of my head
i look at the sky and i miss your face
i miss your love and your warm embrace
i miss knowing that you cared
when i could come to you and not be scared
i feel the grass and i miss your smell
i miss the times you'd say 'all is well'
i miss the way you'd make me smile
the way you made life somehow seem worthwhile
i miss your presence as i feel the air
i miss the times you said you'd always be there
you made me believe in humanity and believe in love
i felt like you were my guardian angel sent from above
i remember everything until i cry
and all i ever think about is why
what bad things have i done
to deserve the taking away of my sun
i suppose things will never be the same
and i don't know the reasons that are to blame
my heart has been shattered, I'm devastated at best
i cant get you out of my mind and it makes me depressed
i guess i have no other choice so this is goodbye
with no earthly clue of the reasons why
why you have left me broken hearted and all alone
i guess this will be merely a stepping stone
Thursday, March 25, 2010
A little bit of insight from the pieces of a broken heart
The tables have turned
My stronghold is now the weakest link
The people I trusted have let me down
My best friend is no longer there
When I need him when times are rough.
Everything I know, used to know
Everything I wanted is gone.
As time passes we count our blessings
But always emphasize the curses
All the things we once knew,
Everythign we loved it's all gone
The people that we admire the most are the very ones that hurt us the most
The one i used to run to when everything was wrong
He doesn't care. never did.
But he's never felt rejection.
He's always had people there for him.
No one knows the feeling of rejection that I"m so fond of
Maybe God put him in my life for a reason
But why would he consantly hurt me?
He says he cares but in my heart deep down inside i know he doesnt.
To him i'm just a dumb girl that isn't important and that doesn't matter
Why should he care about me?
What am i to him?
He doesn't need me. He only needs me when it will benefit him.
My stronghold is now the weakest link
The people I trusted have let me down
My best friend is no longer there
When I need him when times are rough.
Everything I know, used to know
Everything I wanted is gone.
As time passes we count our blessings
But always emphasize the curses
All the things we once knew,
Everythign we loved it's all gone
The people that we admire the most are the very ones that hurt us the most
The one i used to run to when everything was wrong
He doesn't care. never did.
But he's never felt rejection.
He's always had people there for him.
No one knows the feeling of rejection that I"m so fond of
Maybe God put him in my life for a reason
But why would he consantly hurt me?
He says he cares but in my heart deep down inside i know he doesnt.
To him i'm just a dumb girl that isn't important and that doesn't matter
Why should he care about me?
What am i to him?
He doesn't need me. He only needs me when it will benefit him.
Monday, February 15, 2010
After Every Storm, There Is A Rainbow
In our lives, we all have that one person that has influenced us the most. Some people would say a friend, teacher or even their parents. I would say my grandpa. The thing that has impacted my life the most is the life and death of my grandpa.
Growing up, i remember that anytime my parents would need a babysitter, we would go to grandpa's house. He would always watch us and be our chauffer no matter what he was doing. He would always go out of his way to help our family in any way that he could.
He was also my biggest fan. Whenever i had a basketball game, soccer game, talent show, or concert, you can bet he was in the front row cheering me on and encouraging me to do my best and be the best person that i could be.
The past few years were really rough on my grandpa. He was in and out of hospitals doing all sorts of tests. He was in so much pain yet, he always had a smile on his face. He never ever complained about anything. If we needed something done, he was always willing to do it no matter how tedious the task was. He never asked anyone for help, he never asked to take a break, he never asked for a day off.
Spending Christmas in the hospital is a less than ideal situation, but as long as the whole family was together, it didn't matter where we were. We laughed, shared stories, and talked for hours then we went home. The day after Christmas, my grnadpa was rushed into a third open heart surgery. Little did we know, he wouldn't be coming out alive. We were all devastated. We cried until there were no more tears to cry, then we cried some more. We knew grandpa wouldn't want us to live like this. We knew he was sitting in heaven looking down at us saying 'stop crying! i'm in a better place now" an "keep your heads up, trust in Jesus, smile always, i will see you very soon!" The days faded to weeks, weeks to months, and months to a year.
Through this experience, I've learned that no matter what you go through, no matter how badly you're hurting, you can hold your head up high and smile! Things aren't always gonna go smoothly, you'll face trials and tribulations everday but you WILL make it through. We were never promised that life was going to be easy, and it wont be! You'll have your ups and you'll have your downs. But life is a rollercoaster, so pick the biggest one, sit in the front, close your eyes, and hold on tight 'cuz you're in for the greatest adventure!
Growing up, i remember that anytime my parents would need a babysitter, we would go to grandpa's house. He would always watch us and be our chauffer no matter what he was doing. He would always go out of his way to help our family in any way that he could.
He was also my biggest fan. Whenever i had a basketball game, soccer game, talent show, or concert, you can bet he was in the front row cheering me on and encouraging me to do my best and be the best person that i could be.
The past few years were really rough on my grandpa. He was in and out of hospitals doing all sorts of tests. He was in so much pain yet, he always had a smile on his face. He never ever complained about anything. If we needed something done, he was always willing to do it no matter how tedious the task was. He never asked anyone for help, he never asked to take a break, he never asked for a day off.
Spending Christmas in the hospital is a less than ideal situation, but as long as the whole family was together, it didn't matter where we were. We laughed, shared stories, and talked for hours then we went home. The day after Christmas, my grnadpa was rushed into a third open heart surgery. Little did we know, he wouldn't be coming out alive. We were all devastated. We cried until there were no more tears to cry, then we cried some more. We knew grandpa wouldn't want us to live like this. We knew he was sitting in heaven looking down at us saying 'stop crying! i'm in a better place now" an "keep your heads up, trust in Jesus, smile always, i will see you very soon!" The days faded to weeks, weeks to months, and months to a year.
Through this experience, I've learned that no matter what you go through, no matter how badly you're hurting, you can hold your head up high and smile! Things aren't always gonna go smoothly, you'll face trials and tribulations everday but you WILL make it through. We were never promised that life was going to be easy, and it wont be! You'll have your ups and you'll have your downs. But life is a rollercoaster, so pick the biggest one, sit in the front, close your eyes, and hold on tight 'cuz you're in for the greatest adventure!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Living is Easy... With Eyes Closed
Whoever said life was easy was the biggest liar that has ever walked the face of the earth. Truth is: Life isn't easy.
Every day, we are faced with decisions. All kind of decisions like what should I eat for lunch, who should i sit next to in class, should i stand up for myself even if it might get me in trouble?, or even decisions like should i be friends with them, should i change to be friends with them, or are they even worth it? These decisions that we make will affect our future. Every choice we make will change the route that our lives will take, where we will end up, and who we will and will not be friends with.
The past month or so has really been a struggle for me. It seems like, just when you think things in your life are going so well and you're at the place you should be, somehow things find a way to flip on you and you're world is turned upside down and smashed. You're just there with the pieces of your broken heart with no one to pick them up and put them together. You're there just waiting for someone to pick you up and say 'its time to move on i'll help you'. Someone to hold your hand and say 'when you fall i'll pick you up', 'when you feel like theres no hope left i will be here waiting with my arms wide open' and 'when you've got no where else to turn and you're ready to give in i will help you because i love you'. We need these people. These people are the reason that we actually have hope. But the problem is these kind of people are becoming scarce.
Bill Withers says it best-- "If there is a load you have to bear that you cant carry i'm right up the road i'll share your load if you just call me so just call on my brother when you need a hand we all need somebody to lean on i just might have a problem that you'd understand we all need somebody to lean on, lean on me when you're not strong ill be your friend i'll help you carry on for it wont be long til im gonna need somebody to lean on"
At one point or another we will all need someone to help us get thru. To encourage us and to 'hold our hand' to help us get through everything that we're going through. Someone to lean on when we're not strong enough to get through by ourselves. But in order to get a friend, you must first be a friend. You must be the first one to extend your hand when someone needs help, you must be the first one to go out of your way to make someone feel you're love.
I would really like to tell you that all stories have a happy ending, but really they dont. People will fail you. People will stab you in the back. People will break your heart. You will have to burn bridges and choose different paths for your life. Sometimes you'll think you have just what you need or want and then something better will come or a door will be closed. But remember this: Every time one door is closed, another is opened.
I learned from you that i do not crumble. i learned that strength is something you choose. All of the reasons to keep on believing theres no question thats a lesson that i learned from you
Every day, we are faced with decisions. All kind of decisions like what should I eat for lunch, who should i sit next to in class, should i stand up for myself even if it might get me in trouble?, or even decisions like should i be friends with them, should i change to be friends with them, or are they even worth it? These decisions that we make will affect our future. Every choice we make will change the route that our lives will take, where we will end up, and who we will and will not be friends with.
The past month or so has really been a struggle for me. It seems like, just when you think things in your life are going so well and you're at the place you should be, somehow things find a way to flip on you and you're world is turned upside down and smashed. You're just there with the pieces of your broken heart with no one to pick them up and put them together. You're there just waiting for someone to pick you up and say 'its time to move on i'll help you'. Someone to hold your hand and say 'when you fall i'll pick you up', 'when you feel like theres no hope left i will be here waiting with my arms wide open' and 'when you've got no where else to turn and you're ready to give in i will help you because i love you'. We need these people. These people are the reason that we actually have hope. But the problem is these kind of people are becoming scarce.
Bill Withers says it best-- "If there is a load you have to bear that you cant carry i'm right up the road i'll share your load if you just call me so just call on my brother when you need a hand we all need somebody to lean on i just might have a problem that you'd understand we all need somebody to lean on, lean on me when you're not strong ill be your friend i'll help you carry on for it wont be long til im gonna need somebody to lean on"
At one point or another we will all need someone to help us get thru. To encourage us and to 'hold our hand' to help us get through everything that we're going through. Someone to lean on when we're not strong enough to get through by ourselves. But in order to get a friend, you must first be a friend. You must be the first one to extend your hand when someone needs help, you must be the first one to go out of your way to make someone feel you're love.
I would really like to tell you that all stories have a happy ending, but really they dont. People will fail you. People will stab you in the back. People will break your heart. You will have to burn bridges and choose different paths for your life. Sometimes you'll think you have just what you need or want and then something better will come or a door will be closed. But remember this: Every time one door is closed, another is opened.
I learned from you that i do not crumble. i learned that strength is something you choose. All of the reasons to keep on believing theres no question thats a lesson that i learned from you
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
NATEYYY!!
*Disclaimer-this is about nate. if you dont know him ur dumb.*
Alright so... nate where do words begin? i guess they begin when the pen hits the paper or the fingers hit the keyboard to be politically correct. Words cannot begin to describe the feelings we have for this kid
Nate would have to be the epitome of a best friend. and a complete dick. (at the same time)
Nate will go out of his way to help his friends even when he thinks they're hoes.
Nate has a hollow leg where he stores his food. (sorry we cannot expose it to the light to get a picture so.. ur outa luck but its pretty cool)
Nate thinks err i mean KNOWS hes jesus
Nate is banned from Burger King.
Nate thinks tattoos are sexy. Especailly when they are fake, and all over his stomach.
Nates so comfortable with his sexuality that he pretends to be gay
Nate likes chocolate milk.
Nate free runs.
Nate knows the cure to every incurable disease out there fool!
Nate enjoys making fun of people and saying 'shannon are you seriously that retarted?'
Nate likes to party and stelth.
Nate slays at guitar hero and likes to sing for rock band.
Nates is really smart
Nate hates school.
Nate has a big puddle at the end of his driveway because of a sewage line break.
^that was not a lie if you dont believe me.. look!
Nate likes hoagies. ( i dont know what those are but shannon said he likes them so its cool)
Nate likes bugles...<Nate loves cloverfield
Nate hates fat people (which would explain why he hates me)
Nate is convinced his real name is Serph Mehoff
Nate rode in an airplane for the first time one day.
Nates favorite thing to do is run freely through out pastures of wildflowers
Nate believes in taking chances and making the best out of crap
Nate believes the cure for sunburn is more sun (duh that makes sense right!)
Nates phone number is.. prolly in the phone book :)
Nate... whats in a name? he speaks in the tongues of the greek god will farrell. and is funnier than flippin chelsea handler. hes more anal than bruce willis and is coller than ur mom. if u dont believe it.. suck ur mom. shell tell you.
Nate gives the best advice ever.
Nate hates going shopping
Nate likes porn
Nate like girls, as long as the arent whores!
Nate likes Streetlight Manifesto, Laurence Arms, and Reel Big Fish
Blame it on the goose gotcha feeling loose
Nate is proud of his farts
Nate likes to play bingo on GSN
*Now You Know A Lil About Nate. so Suck it Fools!*
Saturday, October 25, 2008
My Tribute to xxPrincessPunkxx
**the videos that are linked have a lot of 'choice language' so be careful **okay so theres this girl and she had videoblogged on youtube.
One day, Fox did a report on the 'emo' culture/trends. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6AbIFnJ0f8
She then went on youtube and was discussing her own opinion about the report.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2pv3s8wxTE
Okay. back on subject. so shes talking about her opinions HER OPINIONS. everyone has a right to their opinion. in my opinion shes great! she sticks up for what she believes. and in MY opinion, the people that hate her are just jealous because they can't stick up for what they believe in like she does!..
So she makes this video and this great group of people that hacked into her computer and stole her information and others put her informational over the internet. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZ1qi9gz7UU
they started prank calling her and threatening to kill her BECAUSE OF HER OPINION! what the heck!. since when is it logical to kill someone because they have a different opinion then you do! what the douche! i understand that!
alright back to real life.
so all this crap is going on and she finally takes all of her videos off of youtube and puts this final one on...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYYIQW1d4MM
theres rumors about her being dead.
is she dead?
is she alive?
i dont know if anyone really knows. i hope shes still alive. shes a great person! kudos for her sticking up for what she believes in. anyone that would sink so low as to killing another human being because they are different needs to seriously evaluate their life and see whats wrong. GO SEE A COUNCELOR or a Psychologist or something. guys come one.
she has a great message behind what she says. there is TOO much hate in the world. why cant emos get along with gangstas? why cant preps and punks get along?
I have so much respect for her. even if your not into the 'emo' thing, even you can have respect for her because she stands up for what she believes in! come one guys cant we just get past the 'stereotypes' and see the person that she is.
well i'm done for now if u have questions about XxprincesspunkxX u can ask me i'll try to find out anything if u want it.
**Guys notice this is MY opinion if u dont like it, u can get over it and move on with ur life like everyone else shoulda done with her!*
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Best Friend
You've always been there for me now i'll return the favor
i'll be your shoulder to cry on
encourage you and love you
you wiped all my tears away
held me in your arms and wispered 'its all gonna be okay'
You loved me when no one else did
took me under your wing
showed me who you are, and who i wanna be
you believed in me when everyone else gave up all hopes
you encouraged me when i was scared and alone
you made me laugh when i wanted to cry
you stood by my side thru thick and thin
you lifted me up when i hit rock bottom
you helped me survive thru the storms of life
my life was incomplete without you
i remain forever changed bcause i met you
you fill my life with joy and love your all i've ever wished for
all of these things i'm gonna do for you because you've shown me what no one else could have and you're my very best friend <3 XD
i'll be your shoulder to cry on
encourage you and love you
you wiped all my tears away
held me in your arms and wispered 'its all gonna be okay'
You loved me when no one else did
took me under your wing
showed me who you are, and who i wanna be
you believed in me when everyone else gave up all hopes
you encouraged me when i was scared and alone
you made me laugh when i wanted to cry
you stood by my side thru thick and thin
you lifted me up when i hit rock bottom
you helped me survive thru the storms of life
my life was incomplete without you
i remain forever changed bcause i met you
you fill my life with joy and love your all i've ever wished for
all of these things i'm gonna do for you because you've shown me what no one else could have and you're my very best friend <3 XD
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